archangel gabriel: read
prophet muhammad: but I cannot read
archangel gabriel: read
prophet muhammad: bitch,

I'm going to a fancy thing tonight and I was looking forward to wearing a nice shirt and tie under my motorcycle gear because it is A Look but it's raining so I have to take the subway bleh

whenever I spend a period of time iterating on a game design idea and arrive at something I feel good about I always feel dumb and kind of beat myself up about how long it took and always feel like I could have thought of it sooner and had more time for development. this is irrational and I know the that I need to go through the process, it's still a shitty feeling.

me, last week: i am making the mature decision to stop working on tech for this talk and just present what i have! this is a sign of GROWTH!
me, now: i........ can probably finish the tech in a day? gonna get back to it? this is a sign of shrinkage?

feeling motivated to watch birth of a nation to understand this country better. i read the plot on wikipedia and its a whole fucking lot and im worried i will eat my own face before i make through the 193 minute runtime.

most people ignore you on a bike which is great because i generally want to be left alone. but little kids consistently stop and look at me when im stopped in full gear with my visor down. a little wave and a rev of my engine tends to send them into an excited fluster as they tug on their parents arm to see if they saw it too. its a lot of fun to get to be a little bit of a clown like that 🤡🏍👋👪

now you'd *think* that providing as much type information at compile time as possible would be the thing to do, but it turns out not to be the case! in some contexts you have to actually leave generic type parameters in the bytecode for the virtual machine to fill in itself, even if you know the types! isn't that wild???

cool dog trick: if you ever want to get a 70lb german shepard to take a nap just start talking to her about the challenges of generating generic call sites on the common language runtime

I wish it wasn't raining

I'm not religious but I grew up in a Muslim family with a very religious grandmother and I have a ton of respect for faith. what boggles my mind is that the part of the political spectrum in this country that most weaponizes their faith also tend to claim to be on the side of facts and reason and not feeling and belief. it's like, no.

thinking a lot about how the same conservative assholes who say shit like "facts don't care about your feelings" believe that, literally, once a week a biscuit magically becomes the body of a two thousand year old Palestinian man and then they eat him, and this is literally true and not a metaphor

i worked really really hard on managing my time and doing self-project management but i guess life is inclined to be like "lol here's a dozen random things you need to worry about in the near term good luck"

everything is happening all at once, and its all stuff i am excited about, but the timing of events out of my control means the integer number of hours in a day do not seem to be enough to do everything i want to do and e.g. sleep, eat. i feel like i am a cup filled to the brim with water and an eye dropper keeps dripping on me.

down to inbox 9 and the oldest message is from yesterday I'm almost totally caught up...!